Wedding Dress

 

Some say it ain’t over till it’s over
But I guess it’s really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go Listen…

Can’t believe what’s goin’ on
Gotta keep my cool, be calm, When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you feel sad and blue
You cry on my shoulder; you give me a sense of hope

Though my heart secretly still aches, aches, aches for you
But when you smile at me, all my pain goes away

When I heard you and he was screamin’ out of control
All I can think about is “No, no, no… he won’t
hurt the one I’ve cared for so long, long… hell, no

I know we’re done, and now it’s none of my concern but how
can two be windin’ out from only weeks in goin’ out
Just makes me feel that what we had was real
Could it be or is it too late

I tried my best to not let you know my feelings inside
I was afraid that we would drift apart and so I hide
Holding my breath and biting my lips, how I wish
If you’d just leave him and come to me

Baby, please just don’t hold his hand anymore
‘Cause you should be my lady
I have waited here so long for you
Look at me now

I know that once I play this song, you will
Vow to spend your life with him, not me
How I pray every single night
That this day will never appear before my eye

You’re wearing a wedding dress
Girl, you’re wearing a wedding dress
It’s not me next to you
Oh, you’re wearing a wedding dress
You never knew how I felt
And I hated you for that
I wished you would look just a bit sad in front of me

Now my eyes are dry and have no, no, no more tears
I talk to you as if you’re here though I’m alone

Every night, thinking and tossing and turning, I can’t sleep
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen in the end
I close my eyes yet I can’t let go of this dream
If you’d just leave him and come to me

Baby just don’t hold his hand

when he comes to you
‘Cause you should be my lady
I have waited here so long for you
Look at me now

I know that once I play this song, you will
Vow to spend your life with him, not me
How I pray every single night
That this day will never appear before my eye

You’re wearing a wedding dress
Girl, you’re wearing a wedding dress
It’s not me next to you
Oh, you’re wearing a wedding dress
Though you can never be mine
I will try to forget you
Please don’t give any thought to how hurt I might’ve looked
Though it’ll be hard for me, I know I need to erase you from my heart

I know for the longest time, I’ve been a fool
I was living in my illusions
When she sees me even now
She still smiles, not knowing how I’ve felt all along

You’re wearing a wedding dress
Oh, no
Girl, you’re wearing a wedding dress
Wedding dress
Oh, you’re wearing a wedding dress

Dont Go

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During sleepless nights
I pretend that the past isn't real
It brings back how I used to feel
So much sadness in my hopeless life
Never knew things would change so fast
You're not here and I'm alone
Trying to runaway from this pain that has grown
I feel so empty now that you're gone
There's so much crying; I feel like dying
This one is for you
And these words aren't brand new
Though it's coming from the heart
Thank you for the life you've given me
Thank you for the hope; I'm finally free
You'll always be in my mind
Cross my heart, hope to die
I never will forget you
During sleepless nights and endless dreams
I hope one day you'll visit me
Just like it was planned to be
So that day you'll finally see
I can't go on without you
I hope this wish will come true
These words inside my heart
Stay in there till we're apart
Feel these tears coming in my eyes
I try not to cry
I'll try
This shooting pain in my eyes
Can't hold it anymore
You're gone; you walked away
These feelings went away
Now I'm colder than the ocean breeze
Now you're too far gone
Please stay with me.

Be Gentle, What You're Holding Is My Heart

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Be gentle: What you're holding is my heart.
Remember in your honesty my pride.
If you don't want to see me, please don't hide
The truth, yet tell it with some art.
Though you may not have asked for me to call,
A single leap of hope must be allowed.
Not easily are shy songs sung out loud.
Yet now I wait alone outside your wall.

I Wish

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I wish that you could feel
My arms about you tight,
Holding you up close
All thru out the night.
To know that I am there
And never away far,
That I will remain
Where ever that you are.
That you could press back
Into my warm embrace,
And feel my soft touch
Warm against your face.
Or you could shift your hips
And press against me tight,
To feel my body's heat
And my lips kissing you light.
I wish that you could hear
My softly whispered song,
To lull you into sleep
For it's here that we belong.
That you could hear me say
All you need to hear,
As I tell you of my love
Whispered soft against your ear.
And you could feel my breath
Warm against your skin,
As I let my presence beg you
To let this true love in.
I wish that I could hold you
And whisper long into your night,
Never would you wonder then
As I held you to me tight...

Forgiveness

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You told me you loved me.
You lay with him.
His hands upon you
And more-
Because you wanted...
But you told me you loved me.
To you, it was not a sin.
You were newly free.
In your mind there was nothing to forgive.
In mine- I trusted you.
Because you told me you loved me.
Your decision
Slashed a gaping, bleeding wound.
I could not sleep the night after you told me
But I loved you for your honesty...
The questions kept coming.
To me, our love was a crystal clear pool
Fed by the springs of pure love.
Deep- able to see the tiniest pebbles at the bottom.
You threw putrid mud in that pool.
You dirtied it, sullied it, clouded it
Made it smell.
The questions kept coming.
Because you told me you loved me.
The tears would not stop.
Because you told me you loved me.
The unbearable pain that had to be borne would not stop.
Because you told me you loved me.
So I got a pump for the pool.
To clean it of the filth by feeding from my pure spring
To find a way to make the pool clear again
Because you told me you loved me.
Because after all the questions, I believed you
And I set the pump to work
In spite of the blood you caused to flow
In spite of the putrid mud
In spite of the pain
I asked myself if I truly loved you.
The answer was, ?Yes?.
I asked if I understood you.
The answer was, ?I have to if love is to survive.? 
I asked if I could still trust you.
The answer was ?Yes?
Because you told me you loved me.
So I put myself in your place
Because you were newly free.
Despite the pain, despite the blood, despite myself
Because what is love if you cannot give and understand?
So I gave and understood.
...And forgave
To forgive is supposed to be divine.
I am not a God.
But if I cannot forgive
I am not human.
Because you said you loved me.
...Because I love you
Though you thought
It was not a matter to be forgiven
If I did not forgive
If I did not understand
Love would have been killed
There was no option
Not if I believed in love
Not if I believed in you
You killed 'the trust'
But that was my trust, not yours.
Not once did you kill
But again
And again
And again
I bore the unbearable pain that tried my soul
Because you told me you loved me.
Because, deep down, I still trusted you.
I believed in you.
I believed in your heart of hearts.
I believed you were not, deep down, lying to me
When you said you loved me.
It?s been a while.
The gaping wound has healed, though there is a scar.
The tears still come sometimes, unbidden, unseen by you
But the love I have for you has not died.
The pool is clear
I?m glad I forgave you.
Glad that we are still together
That I made the effort to understand you
That we can smile and laugh together
Because I love you
Because you said you love me.
Nothing can be killed.
I believe.

It All Went Far Too Quickly

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It all went far too quickly when
We started our romance.
We headed for the Broadway stage
Before we learned to dance.
Naturally, we shared the fear
Of being on a limb,
And scared to stay while loath to part,
We felt our feelings dim.
Ah, me! Well, now we're separate,
And will be for a while.
And then we'll try again, for love
Remembers its sweet smile.
But this time we'll go slow and ask,
Before we go to bed,
If we might try some artful grace
And dance awhile instead.

All About You

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YOU are the sun which brightens up my mornings
U are the spring which bring life to my flowers
U are the melodies that are sang by the birds outside my window
U are the inspiration to my goals, dreams & aspirations
U are the tears that always threaten to fall

U are the pride that i feel when i walk with u by my side
U are the words for that Kelly Clarkson song 'One Moment Like This'
U are the blessing that i pray for each night before i go to bed
U are the night light which i keep at the top of my head
U are the prince charming of all the romance novels that I've read
U r the Mister Right that I've waited for all my life
U are the fur on my teddy that bring comfort to & warmth to on a rainy night
U are the smile which stretches across my face from ear to ear
U r the twinkle i get in my eyes every time i am feeling mischievous
U are the flame to the fire i feel burning inside
U are the lovely fragrances that fill up my nostrils
U are the first thing on my mind as i rise in the morning
U are the cure to every unwanted illness
U are the sugar to my candy coated chocolate
U are the cheese in my delicious strawberry cheesecake
U are my baby, my angel, my lifeline, my world
You're the breath of fresh air that i take in during sunrise
You're the wonderful colours that brighten up the sky when the sun leaves us
You're the water that i drink to refresh my throat
U are an angel in disguise who came to guide me
U are the very person my poetry describes
U are the last person on my mind before going to bed and even while i sleep you're on my mind
You're the hearty laughter that i let out during or after a joke
You're the chill up my spine when my dreams come true
U are the weakness in my knees when i see or feel ur body
U are the one who makes my heart beat faster when you come around
And make my mind spin when our feet are off the ground

Why Is It? Why?

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Why is it that when I think of you
all I can do is cry?
Why is it that when I look at you
all I can do is smile?
Why is it that I think of you
whenever I am sad?
Why is it that I'd like to be with you
whenever I am glad?
Why is it, why is it, why is it?
That's all i ask.

Always Choose Love

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Always choose love, this is all i can see.
Walking along with a path in destiny.
Always choose love, this is what you told me.
Forget the things that dont matter and watch the sunset with me.
In a dream i saw you a long time ago, now that we share this dream in a dream, our seeds of love do grow.

Is this what we do, all for love and always be true? I begin a long day with not much to say, i look in your eyes and start to float away, come back you say, you know its okay.
Love begins to bloom like a bud, and all i do is what i do.
I simply adore you.
Always choose love, yes i do.

I Can't Sleep Anymore

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No matter what i do or what i try to think about, all i see is you.
My heart is on cruise control and iv been driving in circles all the night.
My dreams are the only place i seem to get a break, i long to make them full of you but right now im wide awake.
Every little word youv said and every expression floats thru my aching head.
I know this isnt fake, because im stronger in every way.
Your face and your voice, oh dear, it gets me thru the days with all the possible outcomes i only want first place.
So keep on reading and feeling cause you know your right on track, i will always be so into you its just the way it is.

Losing Grip

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I was holding on to something
That was never really there
Like grasping a rainbow
But only catching air

I thought believing was enough,
Faith would make it come true.
In the end i realized
Its something you must do.

Now im left alone to ponder
All the errors i made
Each one stabs deep into me
And my sanity invades.

Im losing grip with everything
And ive lost my grip on you
Day by day i handle life
But the handles are coming unglued.

I wish that there was somebody
But wishing is what got me hear.
I put hope in my feelings.
I guess my feelings werent clear.

Watch each finger as it lets go
Of the bar its been hanging on.
The bar of reason slowly fades
Because all my reasons went wrong.

So ill keep losing grip
Until theres nothing left to lose.
I should have let you go then
Now,Whats left to prove?

                                  -  Alicia

Goodbye

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Its the lonely feeling in the pit of your stomach;
The never ending hurt that rips through your soul.
Its the single tear that trails silently down your face,
The emptiness leaves you bare and cold.

Its the vast distance between your heart and his...
Not touching,unbending,no longer intertwined.
A realization from way down deep,
The hearts bridge,you can not find.

Its the silent scream that your heart yells;
A shout released when you know the end is near...
Its the knot of anxiety that stays with you.
Just another emotion to add to your fear.

A hearts goodbye...its a hurtful thing.
Its the consequence of"Cinderellas lie"
Hearts break....souls go bare..its a love thats lost.
Everyone loses when a heart says goodbye.




                                   -  Alicia

Her Heart Break

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Laying awake in the dark and the quiet
Her mind racing with every thought: pain, scars, love, hear breaks, hurting every where, guys, trust
The list goes on and on...
So many things to be in one girls head
How can one girl think about so many things and be alright?
Is she alright? does anyone know for sure?
Or is that just what she wants you to think
Is her heart breaking is it already broken
If so who will be able to fix it will there be anyone to fix it...
Or will they only be able to fix bits and pieces of her heart...
That feels like it's been smashed thrown on the floor stepped on a thousand times...
Has her heart had enough
Or are people not done taking it and beating it restlessly...
Has no one ever felt her pain?
If someone has it doesn't seem like anyone has cuz the pain and heart breaking only has gotten worse and worse every day...
Not ever better never
Will it ever get any better
Will it stay how it is or will it get worse than it already is?
She doesn't know how much longer she can sit and do nuthing about this pain
It's finally getting to her
What can she do? what will she do?
No one had felt her heart breaking pain
No one will feel it as much as she had
This pain this hurting will it ever go away?
She doesn't think so...
She thinks it'll be with her in some way for the rest of her life...
Will it follow her to the grave?
Will this pain be the cause of her death?
Doesn't anyone see the pain in her eyes
Can't anyone tell that she's hurting inside...
No, no one sees no one cares...
So why is she still here?
Is she here to be used stepped on heart crushed more heart breaks
Is anything in this world worth this hurt that she's feeling
Will she sit threw this pain and wait or will she end this pain herself?
Who will ever know what'll happen
Cuz with this she says good-bye
To the pain the hurting...
In her heart she feels no more pain...
No more pain ever again with this last good-bye

                                   -  Alicia

Different

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Losing the game is hard...never giving up is often worth while in the end.For me its no longer bearable ..just seeing you and her..it makes my heart break.Keeping it all inside is too much of a mistake..i need to let it out..but i just cant find the words.i just keep my head down,not letting my pain out...and inside i so wish i was her the one you love..Even though i know now im never going to be..for i was just never the one for you..if never giving up is hard..giving up is harder..yet trying to let you go is worse.when i knew you liked her..I feared the worse and now the worse is here..its like my heart is empty for that was the final straw when i realized she was everything..Im left with nothing ..shes taken it all...and left me to pick up the empty pieces of my shattered heart...He knows how i liked him...for some one let it out..
back when i found all i wanted was to scream and shout...but i guess its probly better that he knows..even though i wish he would simply feel the same...Icant stop this pain the empty feeling i feel...I need help.I cant stand this..I just wish i could rewind so i would never have got hurt...If only things were different.

                              

                                   -  Alicia

If Only

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i was just a fool,but i should have been scared.
i didnt realize you'd be different,didnt realize that you'd care.
You were always around,i couldnt be free.
There was love in your eyes,but it just wasnt me.

im sorry,but i cant change who i am
im just me,and thats all ill ever be.

But i wish it were different,i wish i could have been.
I wish i could feel your love,just once again.
I wanted to be that girl that you had in your mind.
I could have pretended,but im just not that type.

Could you forgive me,im just not that way.
but i loved you,and thats all i can say.



                          

                                                         

                                   -  Alicia